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My Journey Through the 12 Steps of NA
- 09 Insanity071. Did I believe I could control my using? What were some of these experiences with this and how were my efforts unsuccessful? Yes I believed I could control my using and I tried hard to. I tried [read more…]
- 08 Hope070. What do I have hope about today? I have hopes of becoming a counselor one day, and of finishing my studies. I have hopes about maybe being a mother one day. I have hope I can remain clean. [read more…]
- 09 Moving On067. How do I know it’s time to move on? I think I have spent enough time now on Step One, having already recently completed it with my first sponsor. 068. What is my understanding of Step One? That [read more…]
- 08 Spiritual Principles053. If I’ve been thinking about using or acting out on my addiction in some other way, have I shared it with my sponsor or told someone else? Yes. I’d been craving and thinking about using [read more…]
- 07 Surrender047. What am I afraid of about the concept of surrender if anything? Not being able to ever use again. I still feel I am missing out, even though I know that I don’t want to go back to using. I [read more…]
- 06 Reservations042. Have I accepted the full nature of my disease? I’d like to think so but I don’t think I can claim so if I still have reservations. 043. Do I think I can still associate with the people connected [read more…]
- 05 Unmanageability026. What does “unmanageability” mean to me? Not being able to prioritise properly. No longer being in control of one’s actions. An increase in negative behaviours. 029. What trouble have I had with [read more…]
- 04 Powerlessness019. Over what, exactly, am I powerless? Other people’s actions/thoughts/etc. Taxes, petrol costs, and such. 020. I’ve done things while acting out on my addiction that I would never do when focusing [read more…]
My Recovery Insights
- I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality DisorderI was officially diagnosed in mid-2018 as suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder, along with depression and anxiety. From as young as I can remember, I’ve always had intense emotions. When I was happy, I was super happy, and when I was sad I was almost broken. However, in contrast to people who are Bipolar, my ups and downs didn’t each last weeks at a time, I could (and did!) fluctuate from happy to depressed to fury and rage in a matter of minutes. As a kid that can really [read more…]
- How Archery Benefits the AddictIt’s true! Archery benefits the addict! Archery has helped me in so many ways in my recovery, and I think it’s a safe and healthy way of fulfilling my reward-seeking tendencies of my inner addict. My achery story I took up archery a good few years ago and shot with a recurve bow for about a year and a half. Skip forward to 2018 and I finally bought myself a bow! I had the choice to go recurve, which is what I knew and what I’d shot up until then, or go compound which I’d [read more…]
- What Makes A Good Sponsor?What is a Sponsor? As soon as we enter the Fellowship of NA, we hear this word Sponsor being bandied around in meetings. So first, let’s go over what is a Sponsor? The official NA literature describes a Sponsor as the following: an NA sponsor is a member of Narcotics Anonymous, living our program of recovery, who is willing to build a special, supportive, one-on-one relationship with us. With a bit more understanding on that, you might have some questions: Where do we start? How do we [read more…]
- Common NA MythsWhat are some common NA Myths floating around? There are so many common NA myths that I’ve heard since I’ve been a grateful member of Narcotics Anonymous. Before stepping into NA, I only knew what I had seen on TV. And while they got it right a lot of the time, they also got it wrong. A lot wrong. It’s unfortunate because I think a lot of people don’t know how to approach their first meeting. So let me help you out by listing some common misconceptions and giving my [read more…]
If you need to talk, reach out!
You are never alone. Please reach out to someone, even if you drop me a message. Otherwise check your local community for any of the available self-help meetings like NA, AA, Al-Anon (for family members dealing with addicts), etc. Remember, they are free and anonymous.