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My Journey Through the 12 Steps of NA
- 073. Did I make insane decisions as a result of my addiction? Did I quit jobs, leave friendships and other relationships, or give up on achieving other goals for no reason other than that those things interfered with my using?073. Did I make insane decisions as a result of my addiction? Did I quit jobs, leave friendships and other relationships, or give up on achieving other goals for no reason other than that those [read more…]
- 072. What things did I do that I can hardly believe I did when I look back at them? Did I put myself in dangerous situations to get drugs? Did I behave in ways of which I am now ashamed? What are those situations like?072. What things did I do that I can hardly believe I did when I look back at them? Did I put myself in dangerous situations to get drugs? Did I behave in ways of which I am now ashamed? What are [read more…]
- 071. Did I believe I could control my using? What were some of these experiences with this and how were my efforts unsuccessful?Insanity 071. Did I believe I could control my using? What were some of these experiences with this and how were my efforts unsuccessful? Yes I believed I could control my using and I tried hard to. [read more…]
- 070. What do I have hope about today?Step Two Hope 070. What do I have hope about today? I have hopes of becoming a counselor one day, and of finishing my studies. I have hopes about maybe being a mother one day. I have hope I can [read more…]
- 069. How has my prior knowledge & experience affected my work on this step?069. How has my prior knowledge & experience affected my work on this step? I’ve always been smart and I think a lot of that is coming back, along with my self-confidence, in recovery. I [read more…]
- 068. What is my understanding of Step One?068. What is my understanding of Step One? That I am an addict in my own right and that I must surrender in order to recover. I also have gained a better understanding of myself and this disease by [read more…]
- 067. How do I know it’s time to move on?Moving On 067. How do I know it’s time to move on? I think I have spent enough time now on Step One, having already recently completed it with my first sponsor. [read more…]
- 066. How is acceptance of my disease necessary for my continued recovery?066. How is acceptance of my disease necessary for my continued recovery? By fully accepting my disease I know, without question, that it cannot be cured but only managed. [read more…]
My Recovery Insights
- What Narcotics Anonymous is really likeI’ve been a grateful member of Narcotics Anonymous for over half a year now. Since being in NA, I’ve relapsed once (on prescription meds, as accidentally as one can do that) so I’m currently in my 90 days to just under 6 months phase. Before stepping into NA, I only knew what I had seen on TV. And while they got it right a lot of the time, they also got a lot wrong. And it’s unfortunate because I think a lot of people don’t know how to approach their first meeting. [read more…]
- How I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality DisorderI was officially diagnosed in mid 2018 as suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder, along with depression and anxiety. And from as young as I can remember, I’ve always had intense emotions. When I was happy, I was super happy, and when I was sad I was almsot broken. However, in contrast to people who are Bipolar, my ups and downs didn’t each last weeks at time, I could (and did) fluctuate from happy to depressed to fury in a matter of minutes. As a kid that can really weigh [read more…]
- Tidy House Tidy Mind“As long as we still owe amends, our spirits are cluttered with things we don’t need. We’re carrying the extra load of an apology owed, a resentment held, or unexpressed remorse. It’s like having a messy house. We could leave so we don’t have to see the mess, or maybe just step over the piles of debris and pretend they aren’t there. But ignoring the disorder won’t make it disappear. In the end, the dirty dishes, the crumb-filled carpet, and the overflowing wastebaskets are still there, [read more…]
- How archery has helped my recoveryArchery has helped me in so many ways in my recovery, and I think it’s a safe and healthy way of fulfilling my reward-seeking tendencies of my inner addict. I took up archery a good few years ago and shot with a recurve bow for about a year and a half. Skip forward to last year and I finally bought myself a bow. I had the choice to go recurve, which is what I knew and what I’d shot up until then, or go compound which I’d been around but never shot before. Looking at my [read more…]
Healing Through Art
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