013. Am I comparing a current manifestation of my addiction to the way my life was before I got clean? Am I plagued by the fact that I should have known better?

013. Am I comparing a current manifestation of my addiction to the way my life was before I got clean? Am I plagued by the fact that I should have known better?

I do consider the fact I ate more healthily during active addiction. I also can recognise when I am letting myself win vs what is right, so essentially can tell myself that I know better, but only after the fact.