042. Have I accepted the full nature of my disease?

I’d like to think so but I don’t think I can claim so if I still have reservations.

043. Do I think I can still associate with the people connected with my addiction? Can I still go to the places where I used? Do I think it’s wise to keep drugs or paraphernalia around, just to “remind myself” or test my recovery? If so, why?

No to all of the above, except I used to use at home so I have to keep “going back” there. However, I have changed a lot of the environment so it almost feels like a new beginning.

044. Is there something I can’t get through clean, some event that might happen that will be so painful that I’ll have to use to survive the hurt?

I used to think the death of a loved one, but after talking with my dad I now realise it wouldn’t be what they (the deceased) would want for me. They wouldn’t want to be cheapened to an excuse.

043. Do I think I can still associate with the people connected with my addiction? Can I still go to the places where I used? Do I think it’s wise to keep drugs or paraphernalia around, just to “remind myself” or test my recovery? If so, why?

No to all of the above, except I used to use at home so I have to keep “going back” there. However, I have changed a lot of the environment so it almost feels like a new beginning.

044. Is there something I can’t get through clean, some event that might happen that will be so painful that I’ll have to use to survive the hurt?

I used to think the death of a loved one, but after talking with my dad I now realise it wouldn’t be what they (the deceased) would want for me. They wouldn’t want to be cheapened to an excuse.

06 Reservations
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